I realized I haden't posted in over a month. Artan is now 13 months he can say "down" clearly and is working on "goldfish". he's walking and this last weekend we went camping for the first time with him and no he can climb slopes. I'm being a stay at home mom but I need to find somthing soon so we can get by this winter.

So Benji and I just moved across the street and down the hill a bit. I still have to go back up and do some cleanning up of the piles of paper crap that have grown as we packed up. some of my friends around here think we should show up at our old housemates parents house with babe in arms to demand the over 1,000 dollers he owes us, and letting his parents know what a shity job they have done with raising their son. some people think that a registared letter would be more politic. We are to a point of choosing between bills, rent and food. We still have to transfer utilities to the new place. But we are now in a house just the 3 of us.

location: home mood: blah music: hour of slack tags: house

So I wrote this over a week ago now but lost Internet before I could post it. this whole rant is about 10 days old.

So Benji and I where told that we need to have 3000$ to our land lord in the next ten days or so before he will let us move into a smaller place next month that we can cover without roommates then we had the power bill(347$) which is in perpetual threat of being shut off,and was more then we have in our bank account, we asked Tim what he could do but he kept stalling and he was at work, finally he was getting his parents to cover it. he told Benji they would have it done within the hour when more then an hour went by and Benji called the payment still had not cleared, he gathered together Tim's XBOX games and called three more times on the way to Ed McKay's and while they where processing them he called one more time and the payment had cleared. he went in and got the games back and came home. when Tim got home from work he told Benji to "Never go in my room again" and accused him of steeling the games.
1) the games had only moved to the living room.
2) he's 4 months behind on rent and Benji and I are the only ones on the lease so I feel he has limited claim on that room as being "HIS" totally.
3)he has been taking advantage of our generosity since last November and we had never ordered him out of our space never to return and has barged in to our space un-invited many times.
4) Tim has been saying he's about to have a job any day for over 6 months if Tadd doesn't get the money he wants the we are effectively homeless.
5) he himself has suggested that he had extra stuff that could be sold if necessary.
6) Benji saw this as a last resort. If he had needed to sell them he would only have had baerly the time to get to the bank and make a payment befor the 5pm deadline for the power.
so now that his parents have paid the power bill he only owes us just over 1300$(just over 4 months rent) instead of over 1700$.
And to add injury to insult I pulled a mussel in my leg so as it hurt to put weight on it, so when I was crawling after Artan I snagged my big toe nail on a ruff spot in the floor. so injury to both legs in some way on top of all the crap with Tim. who is now saying he'll be moved out by sunday but he still owes us over 1300$ I'm so mad at him I want to do some unQuakerly things to him and his stuff.

location: dinning room mood: tired music: AC unit tags: house

I don't know why this is happening now, that I can't sleep. some nights I can get to sleep before 11 and sometimes (like tonight) I'm awake after 2am. I took 4 Ibprofen for my lower back and Benji gave me a wonderful back rub I fell asleep for 20min and now I'm wide awake at 2:30am. I didn't even have much of the green tea Ice Cream I made today. *shrug* should I go get some anyway? :P That would mean putting clothing on or at least a towel I'll try just going back to bed.

tags: sleep dep

Life has been hard lately. I hope thing will get better now that Tim has a job, even if it is selling cars :b It looks like benji and I will be going out of town for FGC leaving on the 27th and comming back on July 6th NCYM(C) starts the 9th and TransformUs will start on the 17/18-21 then we have just under two weeks to pack and move across the street from where we are now but not in to the place we lived before but next door to that.I'm hoping that Tim will be able to pay back most if not all the money he owes us by the time we move. Artan will most likly be walking by the time we move. After we move or at least are fully packed then I might be confidant abot finding a job.

location: home mood: blah music: none people are sleeping tags: baby, house, job, money

Last night I read Sally's birth story post. I cried a few times and Benji had the sense to leave me be while I was reading it once he found out what I was reading. the other day Benji got a video off the "Freak Net" called "What Babies Want". that and Sally's story confirmed with me that I never want to have a birth in a Hospital. I have also decided that I wast to write out how our Homebirth went. Wherever Benji and I end up when we are having our 2nd child I want to have a homebirth in water with Artan in the tub with me ass his younger brother or sister is born. Artan is now just over 9months and will probably start walking before is first birthday. He is over 25lb and over 30in tall. he in now riding front facing in a larger car seat.
Yesterday I went to Friendly Center and picked up three applacations, REI, Coldwater Creek, and Lane Bryant. I still need to fill them out and turn them in in the next few days. While at LB I also got my first new pair of jeans in over a year. I also found out over the weekend that we will have to move to yet another house on Guilford Ave. in Aug. We can't aford to keep supporting other people in this house while trying to take care of Artan in his first year. Not to mention that we are both unemployed for the summer. Benji's teaching job will start up again in Aug but he wont get paid till Oct 20th(our 7th Anniversary) and after all of our late summer and fall birthdays. I might have Artan's Birthday party a dat or two before that actual day and mine the next weekend so I can have a party this year as my B-Day was a little overshadowed last year.

location: home mood: good music: none tags: baby, birth, houseing, job, parenting

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I picked up a new applacation yesterday for Once Apon a Child here in Greensboro. it's in Quaker village across the street from Guilford College. we got a baby bounce swing there but it won't fit over our door frames the way it is saposed to. Artan seems to be cutting a lot of teeth right now. It looks like he has the two on the bottom the he is cutting SIX that's right 6 teeth on the top. as a result he is a lot more fussy then he had been before. and he has stasrted pulling himself up on things and subsaquently falling over and bumping his head. I have started going to the Y with Donna but now I'm out of my free passes and need to apply for aid to join. Benji and I are applying for food stamps too and might qualify for a one time welfare check this summer while Benji is not teaching. here's hoping housemates can come thru and get them selves out of the red with us so we can get out of the red ourselves. but I'm taking steps to save money on bread by making some today to be our regular bread for the next few days. and i have an apple pie in the oven right now.

location: home mood: domestic tags: baby, house, job

I'm looking in to a couple of different options now that the bakery is out. I picked up an app from Earth Fare and might go back PT or work with autistic kids which would make more money but I'd be an independent contractor and have to do all my own deductions, and leave me emotionally drained at the end of the day. so I'll fill out the EF app today and go out again tomorrow morning. I hate looking for a job. I just want to get better at doing what I'm doing, go to school for something. well Artan started crying so I need to go.

location: home mood: busy

So I called the bakery today and found out that they "don't have a position for me" so I guess it's back to square one on the job search. I'm going to try calling Jake and see about working with autistic kids. Which I hear the main requierment is patience. I have that! I wonder if they would be OK with Artan comming to work with me sometimes?

location: home mood: annoyed music: Soma FM grove salad tags: job

well I just got home from Donna's B-Day party but can't sleep. It's that time of year when the weather starts to waqrm up and I can't sleep. Like coming out of hibernation or something. Oh well I guess I'll actualy try going to bed here soon anyway. I just don't feel tired. I had some of JP's liquid greens and got a bit tippsy. I don't drink much so it dosen't take much.

mood: awake

I have an interview tomarow at 8:45am at Great Harvest Bread Co. to be thier sweets person the shift would start at 4am and be done by noon most days. this would work out well for us not to put Artan in daycare.

location: home mood: excited music: The Postal Service tags: job

Well I find it interesting still and found My Ex-Boyfriend within 2 days. Strange I'm at Sueabear Hebner on facebook if any of you want to check it out. I'm having a lot of fun.

mood: tired

I'm on facebook now I thought I might be able to hold off but oh well.

location: home mood: bored

well I called the other owner of the bakery I want to work at. I haden't heard from her in the last week I'll try calling again latter. Artan is being fussy right now but Benji is on it, now he's asleep:) I'm tired and benji is about to leave to grade papers before class starts. Benji just went and paid our gas bill so they wont shut us off. Yeah no cold showers!! I hop some of our housemates get paid soon so we can pay our non-comunal bills

mood: blah

so one of my housemates just got home at 2:30am and I can hear her and her BF right above our office. Last night another housemate and his GF woke up Artan just 30min after we had got him to sleep in his crib (not in our bed) It took Benji another hour or so just to get him to sleep again (in our bed) I just heard Artan make a noise but the noieses from upstairs have stoped. OK I'm back after making Artan a bottle. he is now weaned form the breast due to an inability on his part to stop bitting me (he drew blood once) so now we try to give him more solid foods and bottles.

location: home mood: irritated music: same as last one but now he's eating

Hi everyone. I'm awake at 2am even thou Artan has been asleep for hrs now. I guess I shoulen't have had that last cup of coffee, oh well. I had an interview yesterday at Great Harvest Bread Co. But I'll have to have another one with the other owner but Danny Farley remembered me form when I interviewed with him 3-4 yrs ago. it helps that I had been serving him coffee at SBUX during the 2yrs I was there. and yes these people have the same last name as my maiden name. My friend Big Rob is now an asm there and has been telling them good things about me. He seemed impressed by my work with food for WYFNYG:) and I think I won worst job by having to shrink wrap previously viewed porn for a few weeks the summer before I went to Germany. I also transplanted the basil I got at the farmers market last week and we'll be going again in the morning the to REI to get me my first pair of new shoes in over 2yrs, but I have a 20% off any one item but I have to use it by Sunday. well I might try sleep again here soon.

location: home mood: but awake music: none the baby is sleeping in the next room

today Artan and I went to the park today for about 3.5 hrs. I met other local moms and some Guilford grads and a teacher at New Garden Friends School. I think I might have a sunburn but I think I've prevented one on Artan. It looks like Benji came home for lunch even thou he said he was going to stay at work and grade papers. as a result of going to the park Artan has not slept much today I am hoping to keep him awake till I go to Dona's house for Smallville. two more hrs till I head over there.

location: home mood: sore music: A Perfect Circle

Artan is asleep right now and I'm bored. I have an interview at Great Harvest Bread Co. on Friday at 9:30a they are looking for a part time morning person and I'm a person looking for part time in the mornings. It help too that Big Rob is now an ASM there and has put in a good word or two for me wit the owners. We got our tax return and still can't get out of debt. I hope I get this job. I also hope Benji and I get the editorship job we want then I might be able to justify getting a new computer for me as mine has died. wee still need to finish our application for that. I love being SAHM but I need to get back to work soon.

location: home mood: bored music: grove salad, Soma FM tags: parenting, work